It’s funny in my last entry I said that I think people should practice some fucking birth control, and here I am helping women get pregnant for a living and thus helping to bring more people onto this earth than would otherwise be here. Well I have to admit I don’t do what I do for ideological reasons. When I wake up in the morning and drag my ass into work, it’s not because I have some passion or ideological motivation to help couples who are having trouble having children. If it were up to me and I could create money out of thin air, the last place I would be is in some laboratory where I don’t see the light of day. I’d be out hiking most everyday, writing and recording music, reading and researching topics that interest me, and traveling wherever I felt like. These are exactly the things I do in my free time. Unfortunately, money is this thing that exists and I am not smart enough to have my money work for me. So that’s why I work for my money. It’s not a bad gig at all. Honestly, I feel blessed to have been given the opportunity that I have been given. I excel because I don’t do anything half-assed. I want to be the best I can be at anything I do.
I’ve already started to feel more alive that I’ve started writing regularly in this journal again. There is something very powerful about keeping a journal - online or private. You can converse and reflect more in depth about anything and everything.
Tasha and I had a good practice earlier tonight. Anthony, our bassist, was unable to make it to practice. He’s going to Sasquatch Festival this weekend to see Jane’s Addiction, NIN, and all the other cool bands. I’m not upset about not going since I don’t really dig the whole music festival environment. I think it is a thousand times better to see a band you like in as much of an intimate environment as possible.
Well I have long days of work ahead of me so I am going to sleep hard and have huge dreams. Dreams where I can escape from this prison world with its physical laws and limitations. Dreams where I exist at way higher vibrational levels and great music is playing in the background the whole time and where I’m feeling cool and weird emotions that really can’t be felt in the waking state. I know waking life can be whatever we want to create it to be. Waking life is formed directly from belief. But if I create a high vibration existence around myself, I don’t really get the chance to accomplish much in this world. It’s better to get our hands dirty and do something real than to stay clean and sterile in some ivory tower and a total alien to the true realities of life.